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For a brief period from 2004 to 2006, it seemed like I was discovering some weird new black metal band every other day. Indeed, bands like Nuit Noire, Circle of Ouroborus, Urfaust and Woods of Infinity were blowing my mind with their uniquely bizarre takes on the genre, but none of them prepared me for Lifelover’s astonishingly twisted debut album, Pulver.
Released in July of 2006 on cult independent label GoatowaRex, Lifelover’s first full-length is a descent into the deepest depths of depression. As someone who has suffered from depression throughout most of my life, the album drew me into its pitch black confines almost immediately. It’s combination of uneasiness, manic energy and overwhelming melancholy spoke to me in a way that very few albums have before or since, even though I didn’t understand the Swedish lyrics.
You see, I didn’t need lyrics to identify with vocalist Kim Carlsson. This is because his work on Pulver is one of the most harrowing performances in black metal this side of Silencer’s Death – Pierce Me. Carlsson’s singing gave a voice to how I often felt inside back then, language barrier be damned; it was and still is a listening experience that’s equal parts exhilarating and terrifying.
Of course, great vocals need great songs and Pulver is jam-packed with them. Owing as much to gothic rock and post punk as it does to black metal, tracks such as “M/S Salmonella” “Vardagsnytt” and “Sondagg” are dark as the dungeon, but they’re also strangely catchy. By taking their depressive black metal foundation and incorporating complimentary outside influences, Lifelover created a sound so utterly singular that to this day it has never been duplicated; I can’t think of a single band that’s even so much as tried.
All of this makes for an album that you don’t just listen to; you experience. Pulver is a record best experienced alone, in a dark room with a good pair of headphones, so as to fully immerse oneself in its infinite layers of despair. The production is lo-fi, which makes for a very interesting listen from a textural standpoint; guitars range from clean/acoustic to a fuzzy distortion that creeps around the edges of the songs, while the vocals take many forms, be they agonized screams, spoken word monologues, or strange, incoherent mutterings, sometimes with reverb or echo effects added. A piano is often incorporated, its sad melodies pulling at the heart strings to the point of agony. All of this is propelled by the simplistic beats of a drum machine; surprisingly, the canned drums do not in any way detract from the listening experience and in fact they more often than not enhance the bleakness Pulver so effortlessly conveys throughout its forty-two minute run-time.
Lifelover would go on to release three more albums before breaking up in 2011 due to multi-instrumentalist and main songwriter Jonas Bergqvist’s (credited on Lifelover releases as B) untimely passing due to an accidental prescription drug overdose that same year; a tragic end to one of the most unique and idiosyncratic bands to ever emerge from the Swedish black metal scene. Lifelover may have ended prematurely, but thanks to Pulver they’ll always have a place in both my head and my heart as one of the bands that got me through some pretty rough times mental health-wise and forever changed the way I thought about black metal in the process.